I have so many things towering over me this year, senior year sucks. It’s supposed to be the funnest year just chillin, doing nothing in school, no worries. But there’s actually a lot of worries. I’ve decided to join Habitat for Humanity within my school to help build homes in South Dakota for people in need and I did it because I truly like to help people but the closer the trip comes, the more I don’t want to go. I’ll love to help people it’s just I’ve never been in a different state without someone I know. Granted I’m going with my best friend, teachers and classmates, but I don’t know how it’s going to be since Iv’e never been away with them. My best friend is the only one I’m going for and the only one I know I’ll have an amazing time with but my classmates and teachers are all cunts and I’m leaving behind my boyfriend, my other best friend and my mom, it’s hard for the first time around. On top of that I decided I’m not going to go to college because it’s WAY too expensive to become a baker and even though it was my decision, I kind of feel like a low life. Everyone is going to college and I’m going to work. My job isn’t the worst thing out there and I am in the environment I want to be in which is a bakery but all I’ve learned from working there is I DON’T want to be a counter girl and I DON’T want to be someone else’s little bitch. It’s a job for right now, which is a great thing because I need it, I just wish I could do something closer to the kitchen but then again that will never happen either because not that I have anything against them but all bakeries I go into have illegal mexicans working in the kitchen so people can pay them less. My job field is such a hard one to get into but i’m going to try my hardest and make it some day. Having a job is making me spend less time with my best friends, boyfriend and family so that’s a big bummer, I just need it right now. And on top of that a big opportunity came up to learn everything I want to learn about pastry but my schedule just isn’t going to fit into it. Which sucks, this year sucks, but it could be worse.